I have been staring at this silver dish of fried hen for what looks like hours however what actually, really, has been days. Twenty-three days, to be precise, over the course of the three-month Lifeless Ceaselessly run on the all-new, all-American pleasure palace—the Las Vegas Sphere.
I grew up on the street. First on the household bus, touring from metropolis to metropolis to observe my father, Mickey Hart, play drums with the Grateful Lifeless and Planet Drum, after which later with the assorted Grateful Lifeless offshoots. Once I was sufficiently old, I joined the crew, working for Lifeless & Firm, doing no matter I could possibly be trusted to deal with: stringing strands of plastic Grateful Lifeless–bear lights; ferrying tie-dyed tapestries, extension cords, and gaffer tape by golf cart; serving to VIP-ticket holders smuggle ziplocks stuffed with vegan sandwiches and granola into the venue. Then, late-night, ingesting whiskey from the bottle with the techs, sitting within the emptying parking zone because the semitrucks and their load-out rumble marked the tip of our day.
However this summer season, for the primary time within the band’s historical past, there could be no buses; there could be no vans. As an alternative we stayed in a single place, buying and selling the rhythms of a tour for the uninteresting ache of a protracted, endlessly sizzling Las Vegas summer season.
It’s a brand new approach of doing issues, one with simply sufficient of our former existence to maintain it comfy and simply sufficient change to maintain the street ahead thrilling—even when the street is now an phantasm, stretching out under an AI-generated sky. The Grateful Lifeless had been well-known for its Wall of Sound—about 600 audio system painstakingly assembled by the crew at every venue, then simply as painstakingly packed again up for the following stadium or live performance corridor. The Sphere is a wall of mild : a 160,000-square-foot show programmed to move the viewers members, their necks craned upward, because the band performs under, slightly dot towards the expansive animated horizon.
Earlier than that high-tech spectacle can start, nonetheless, a really outdated, analog custom have to be noticed: dinner. Someday between sound verify and the present opener, everybody sits down for a shared meal. The monitor tech and the bassist, the top of safety and the lighting director, the person promoting merch and the person enjoying drums—all of us shuffle ahead holding the identical white dinner plates and napkins, arms outstretched, able to obtain no matter meals is served, like youngsters in a cafeteria.
The catering choices not often differ. Nearly at all times, there’s a salad bar with each attainable number of Newman’s Personal dressing. There are sandwich fixings. There’s a soupy fish dish and a vegan pasta that congeals into the form of its serving tray, like Jell-O in a mould. On the finish of the desk, inevitably, a large chunk of meat waits to be carved.
Nonetheless, I at all times appeared ahead to sure venues. For the outdated arms on the crew, the Shoreline Amphitheatre, in Mountain View, California, was infamous for having been constructed on high of a landfill—methane from the decomposing trash would seep out of the earth, resulting in flaming eruptions when viewers members lit a joint. However for me, Shoreline meant comfortable serve. Outdated, decrepit, however purposeful, the machine was hidden within the far-left nook of backstage hospitality. I’d fill a bowl with ribbons of ice cream, topping them off with a downpour of chocolate sprinkles.
Right here on the Sphere, dinner is fried hen—once more. Each night time, hen is ready in the identical fryer, seasoned with the identical spices, and delivered by the identical individual. It’s positioned on an equivalent white tablecloth with serving utensils angled at matching levels. That is life in a company commune.
Staring on the serving platters, I’ve an concept. I strive the fried hen in a brand new mixture. I take some salsa from the empanada platter on the left, some mac and cheese from the platter on the appropriate. It’s nonetheless fried hen, nevertheless it works—one thing new comprised of one thing acquainted.
I’ve a reminiscence of a birthday in some Midwest backstage. I feel it was my ninth, nevertheless it’s exhausting to say for positive. I had been craving cheesecake for weeks. Out of concern of sending some runner on a wild-goose chase, I instructed nobody. I used to be perpetually fearful of changing into an inconvenience, a sense I think about is fairly frequent for teenagers who develop up on the street.
There was the glow of a birthday candle, my mom’s hand cupped over an obscured slice of cake. The stagehands sang “Completely happy Birthday” as I shrank into the sofa cushions, embarrassed by the eye. My father performed a drumroll on a toaster as my mom handed me the plate. I appeared down. The cake was big and oozing wealthy frosting and most positively, 100% … chocolate. I smiled and blew out the candle. I made a want—for cheesecake.
Later, each band and crew migrated to catering for dinner. I walked down the row of lengthy plastic tables, questioning if the bundle of sourdough bread was the one I had opened in Milwaukee the week earlier than, or if it was simply an equivalent one. I imagined an outdated Grateful Lifeless street case stuffed to the brim with sandwich supplies—mustard and mayonnaise within the stick drawer, a sequence of plastic-wrapped tomatoes the place the drum pads needs to be, a head of lettuce stuffed inside a cajón. It was attainable. We introduced nearly the whole lot else with us, even the lights and the stage.
On one desk sat a big plastic bag of Kraft shredded cheese—the Mexican mix, with little cheddar and Monterey Jack worms flattened towards the clear casing. I grabbed the bundle and pushed it below my shirt, then walked again out towards the stage casually, like an knowledgeable jewel thief.
I collected the chocolate-cake slice and took it beneath the stage to the below-deck depths the place the riggers arrange hammocks for naps after sound verify. I appeared round to make sure I used to be alone, then I eliminated the cheese from below my shirt and poured all of it onto the cake plate. I tore off the tip of the slice, stray cheese falling onto the chilly cement flooring, and greedily shoved it into my mouth.
I chewed my cheesecake proudly, nodding to myself like I used to be a decide on some fancy cooking present. “9.5!” I introduced, my voice echoing within the empty area under the stage. “Half some extent off—no whipped cream!”
I knew the cake was horrible. It didn’t matter. I cherished it. I had made my want come true.
From an early age, I might style a tour route as quickly as I noticed it. Tracing the checklist of cities with my index finger, I knew the roads we’d journey and the meals we’d eat. Present nights meant dinner in catering, however even the relentless schedule of a Lifeless tour had the occasional off night time, an opportunity to flee the venue and hunt down outdated favorites.
Madison Sq. Backyard at all times, with out compromise, meant orange hen and water chestnuts, the fats that falls off the sting of spare ribs, and duck-sauce stains on outdated merch shirts. Madison Sq. Backyard meant New York, and New York meant Wo Hop.
Established in 1938, Wo Hop is, so far as I can inform, probably the most well-known dive in Chinatown. My father first went there within the Nineteen Sixties, when, as he remembers it, it nonetheless had sawdust on the ground. It was recognized for its midnight clientele—John Belushi, Patti Smith. It’s the hidden gem that everybody thinks they’ve found.
For our household, Wo Hop represents the frayed tether connecting East Coast to West Coast, our previous to our current. Although my dad and mom made their house in California, my lineage, on each side, comes from New York. My Jewish great-grandfathers lived and labored in the identical metropolis whereas inhabiting totally totally different worlds. One opened Ohrbach’s, the Manhattan division retailer the place knockoffs of Parisian couture have been bought to keen housewives. Across the identical time, someplace in Brooklyn, one other great-grandfather acquired his cab medallion.
The very first thing I do when the buses drop us off in New York is begin strolling. I like to consider my great-grandfathers once I do, imagining what their days appeared like and what model of New York they knew.
In the summertime of 2023, on what was billed as Lifeless & Firm’s closing tour, I went for a really lengthy stroll, crisscrossing town. I handed the previous website of the Fillmore East, Invoice Graham’s well-known music corridor, which had as soon as been my household’s second house, and the place a number of the biggest stay albums of the ’60s and ’70s—notably, ones by Miles Davis and the Allman Brothers—have been recorded. It was now a financial institution. I gave $5 to a person sitting exterior with a protracted grey beard and an indication that stated All of us get outdated however at the least I noticed Jimi Hendrix.
Finally, because the solar started to set, I discovered myself at 17 Mott Road—deep within the coronary heart of Chinatown—standing on the steps that lead right down to Wo Hop. There’s one thing concerning the purple tiles that line the partitions to its decrease entrance, the sunshine from neon indicators bouncing throughout them. The pull of Wo Hop is so robust that I at all times find yourself there, even with out aspiring to, like I’m following its siren tune throughout town. Wo Hop is sort of a acquainted chorus: you will need to return to it a couple of extra occasions earlier than the tune is over.
I sat down and gestured to the waiter that I used to be able to order. He walked over, pen and pad in hand.
“Welcome to Wo Hop,” he stated with a smile. “Have you ever been right here earlier than?”
On present days, the sushi arrives at 3 p.m., simply earlier than sound verify. It’s been there all my life, a kaleidoscopic swirl of salmon pinks and opalesque lotions, with a slight variance in high quality relying on the gap to the ocean. It is available in shiny cellophane wrapping that sticks to the outer fringe of the sashimi and twinkles below the tough fluorescent lights overhead.
It’s pure protein, a supply of vitality smooshed throughout a six-inch tray. The sushi is in my father’s rider:
Assortment of Sashimi upon arrival at 3:00 p.m.
(6) Ika
(6) Salmon
(6) Toro
(6) Hamachi
(6) Unagi
On tour, it’s simple to overlook that you should cease and eat, or to see consuming as a mere impediment to placing on the present. Generally, it’s only a query of priorities—waking up in a resort room and realizing that in case you don’t bathe now, it’ll be three days on the bus earlier than you get one other probability. So that you skip the continental breakfast and drink espresso from the machine in your room. You arrive on the venue earlier than catering opens, and by the point it does, you’ve moved on to some activity that requires crossing the size of the venue and again. Rider meals is insurance coverage, a contractual assure that there might be one thing to maintain us going.
It’s not till week three or 4, after we’re close to the midpoint of the tour, that the sushi begins to morph into one thing else. It’s a weird flip—we start to resent the sushi platter, blame it for the monotony of our lives. (“Maddening,” my father likes to say.) However we nonetheless go after it each night time, tearing off the cellophane and grabbing on the uncooked fish like black bears at a salmon stream. Generally, a humorous little fishhook smile seems on my father’s face after the final of the sushi is gone, an acknowledgment that, in his phrases, “all of us acquired to eat.”
There may be a particular sort of emotion that comes with the tip of a tour. All the selections that have been as soon as in another person’s arms come raining down as regular on a regular basis life returns. It at all times hits on the airport after the final present, when all of the sudden nobody’s telling you the place to go. You’re in cost, in charge of your personal schedule, and for the primary time in a really very long time, you need to resolve what you wish to eat.
After all of the moaning about postshow pizza and rancid pasta, all of the daydreaming about belongings you’d eat in case you have been again house, the truth is that these first steps into the world of free will not often really feel something aside from lonely.
On the finish of the summer season, I wander round Harry Reid Worldwide Airport, surrounded by the glow of the slot machines, till I see a to-go meals counter, stroll over, and stare on the menu.
“What can I get you?” the individual behind the money register needs to know. My eyes scan throughout what looks like an limitless abyss of choices. “Do you’ve gotten any cheesecake?”
This text seems within the December 2024 print version with the headline “One for the Highway.”
